Today, I do not like myself. Some days it's just like that. I'm annoyed at how lazy I have been this week, how much I have procrastinated. I am upset that I haven't kept up with routines that I KNOW make me feel better, but I have given up for more sleep or for more time to just sit and do nothing. I am irritated that I am not doing what I want to do.

I control myself, and I don't like myself for allowing myself to just pretend like that's not the case. Or just choose the bad options. The options that lead to poor choices.

I know I am unreasonably hard on myself. Sometimes it's really okay to just have a lazy period, but I don't feel good about it right now.

Today, I do not like myself.

I don't like the slightly dirty, itchy feeling of my skin because I missed the gym this morning and therefore didn't shower after the gym. I don't like the creeping headache I have from just not taking care of my body right. Nothing feels good today.

I know tomorrow is a new day. I can restart and do everything better tomorrow. I know this feeling is temporary. Tomorrow I can like myself. I can even be thrilled with myself. This is just a bad mood. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

I am doing the best I can.