I Don't Like Myself Today

Today, I do not like myself. Some days it's just like that. I'm annoyed at how lazy I have been this week, how much I have procrastinated. I am upset that I haven't kept up with routines that I KNOW make me feel better but I have given up for more sleep or for more time to just sit and do nothing. I am irritated that I am not doing what I want to do.
I control myself and I am not liking myself for allowing myself to just pretend like that's not the case. Or just chose the bad options. The options that lead to poor choices.
I know I am unreasonably hard on myself. Sometimes it's really okay to just have a lazy period but I don't feel good about it right now.
Today, I do not like myself.
I don't like the slightly dirty, itchy feeling of my skin because I missed the gym this morning and therefore didn't shower after the gym. I don't like the creeping headache I have from just not taking care of my body right. Nothing feels good today.
I know tomorrow is a new day. I can restart and do everything better tomorrow. I know this feeling is temporary. Tomorrow I can like myself. I can even be thrilled with myself. This is just a bad mood. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
I am doing the best I can.


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